Trust

Life has been pretty hectic! But I have a reason to rejoice!

Going through competitions and being nervous is part of life. It's what strengthens a person and makes them less vulnerable. I recently, just a few hours ago, experienced nervousness and worry.

I just had a piano and scripture recitation competition. Well the competition isn't that competitive becasue it's between churches and it's just to gain experience. Well that's my point of view. I went to the competition thinking that I wouldn't win because everyone else would surely beat me, musically wise. And the scripture recitation was just another way to force myself to memorize passages. I thought that since i'm not going to win i'll just relax a bit.

However, my heart thought differently. Beforethe piano competition, I was against these little kids (aged 10-12). It's pretty embarrassing. I felt pressured because I couldn't lose to them. My piano teach, however because of God's grace, told me to let it go. "So what if you're against these small kids?" I tried to let the pressure dissipate but honestly, only half of it left. During the competition, I was VERY nervous. My heart was pounding hard and it hurts! I was one of the last ones to perform but it was all God's plan.

I heard the first girl, she was very musical and her tones were excellent. (If you don't know what i'm talking about well... she's a very telented pianist). Everyone else also were extremely talented and they played sooo well. Right before my turn, God nudged me and told me to play for Him only and no one else. Suddenly all the pressure pressing on me disappeared! It was so refreshing. Then I went up to perform, I missed a few notes, but deep inside of me, no pressure was felt and I had the inner peace God promised!

The end result was that got 2nd place! I was SHOCKED!! God truly blessed me! I was jumping around and REJOICING!!

Praise the Lord!

God is GOOD, all the times!